I know sorry is a small word for what I did. I saw your eyes last night, how hurt you were, and I couldn't sleep at all. I kept replaying what I said. You don't deserve to be treated like that, especially not by me - the person who promises to protect your heart. I was stupid, I was angry, I was agitated. I was not valuing you, even when I am angry, I love you. Please don't go to sleep angry today. Forgive your stupid girlfriend who doesn't know how to handle her own anger but knows she can't live without you. I'm sorry, meri jaan.
But please read this once. I am not asking you to reply, I am asking you to let me say sorry properly. What I did was wrong, there is no excuse. I let my ego come between us and I hate myself for it right now. You are not someone who cries easily, and yesterday I made you cry. That image is stuck in my head. I am so sorry, baby. Come back, let's fix this. I can't live without you.
I wish I could come right now, sit in front of you, hold your face and say sorry until you hit me and forgive me. I miss your voice. The house, my phone, even my morning chai feels so empty without your "good morning" and "kha liya?" Please don't punish yourself by staying upset. Punish me, shout at me, block me for a day, but don't stop talking to me forever. I love you more than my own ego. I am really, really sorry, jaan.
Because I saw the most precious person in my life hurt because of me. Tum gussa ho, tum naraaz ho, and I am the reason. I feel like the worst girlfriend in the world. Babu, I know I shouted without thinking. Gusse mein maine tumhara dil tod diya. And now my own heart is breaking seeing you silent. Tumhari khamoshi mujhe maar rahi hai. Please Jaan, ek baar maaf kardo. I promise main aage se pehle samjhungi, phir bolungi. I love you so much, please come back.
No ifs, no buts. I was wrong. You were trying to make me understand and I was busy proving myself right. How childish I was. Baby, your love is not a battlefield where I have to win. It's a home where I have to belong. And I almost destroyed that home with my ego. Sorry Jaan, please let's not sleep angry. I miss your "good night, meri jaan" already.
Do you know how much it hurts me to know that I hurt you? The person who brings me chocolates when I am sad, who listens to my nonsense at 3 AM, I made him feel alone. Jaan, I am so sorry. Tum jo mere liye itna karte ho, maine tumhe kya diya? Aansoon? Please forgive me. I will make it up to you, not with words but with my love, every single day.
Your silence is killing me more than your anger ever could. I would rather have you shout at me, fight with me, than stay silent and make me feel like I lost you. Babu, I am sorry for what I said. Those words were not me. That was my anger speaking, not my love. My love only knows how to love you, not hurt you. So please, say something. Even a "I am still angry" will be enough. Just don't ignore me.
It's not that you are angry. It's that I made the boy who laughs like a child, cry like he lost something. And that something was me. I lost you for a few hours and my whole world stopped. I can't imagine losing you forever. Please don't punish me like that. I am sorry for being the reason for your tears. Those tears should be because of a sad movie, not because of me. Come back, jaan. I miss us, I miss you, I miss your stupid jokes that only I laugh at.
How we used to say sorry to each other even for small things. "Sorry jaan, network nahi tha" "Sorry baby, late reply". And now look at me, I did something big and I don't even know how to make it up. You came into my life when I was nothing. You made me believe in love. And I repaid you by hurting you. I am the worst, I know. But if you still have even 1% love left for me, please use that 1% to forgive me. I will make that 1% into 1000% again, with my love, with my efforts.
And trust is like glass, once broken, it cracks. But you know what? Our love is not glass, it's like gold - can melt, break, but it can be made again, more beautiful. I want to make it true again. I will be transparent, I will be honest, I will be there. No more lies, no more hiding. Because I realized, hiding one thing can break everything big. Please give me one more time. Your trust is my biggest achievement, and I lost it. Help me earn it back. I am sorry.
I know you are probably crying right now, or angry, or both. I wish I could be there to wipe your tears. I wish I could hug you tight that all the fight goes away. I am not perfect, jaan. I am a work in progress. But my love for you is perfect. It has always been. Yesterday, I failed as a girlfriend, but please don't let that fail our love, your person. Sleep if you can. And if you dream, dream of us laughing again. Because I am going to make that dream real tomorrow. Sorry, my love. Good night. I love you, even if you don't love me tonight.
Mamma heard and laughed, but I cried inside. Because you were not there to answer. I know you are hurt, but can you imagine how much it hurts me to know that I am the reason for your hurt? It kills me, jaan. It really does. I am not asking you to forget what I did. I am asking you to remember how much I love you, despite what I did. Forgive me, please. Your guilty, totally in love girlfriend.
Since you left angrily, I am sitting in the same corner where we last laughed. The same place now feels so empty. Your hoodie that you left here, I am wearing it. It smells like you, and I am crying hugging it. How can I be so stupid to hurt the person who gave me his everything? You gave me your time, your care, your future plans. And I gave you pain in return? Jaan please come back. This house, this heart, everything is incomplete without you. I am so sorry, from the bottom of my heart which only beats for you.
Every word I said, every hurt I gave. I would delete that whole evening from our lives if I could. But I can't. All I can do is say sorry with my whole heart and promise you I will never be that person again. You are too precious to lose. I was blind in anger. Now my eyes are open and all they see is your hurt face. Please maaf kardo na, baby. I love you more than my own happiness.
I am holding onto that line today. Because I am scared. Scared that my mistake broke what we promised. Jaan, I know I hurt you deeply. I saw it in your eyes when you said "It's okay" but your voice was breaking. It's not okay, I know. And I am not okay either without you. Please don't let one bad day ruin our so many good days. Please forgive me, let's make more memories, better ones. I love you, I am sorry, I need you.
My sorry feels too small today. I want you to know - last night after you went offline, I sat with my phone for 2 hours, typed sorry 100 times and deleted it, because no sorry felt big enough for your hurt. I know I have a bad habit of speaking without thinking when I am angry. And you, you have a bad habit of forgiving me so easily. Taking advantage of that, and I hate that about me. I promise, I will work on my anger. Not just say it, I will show it. Because I love you. Because losing you over my stupid anger is the dumbest thing. My mother says anger makes sense with you. So please, give your stupid girlfriend one more chance to make it right.
But I know you inside - you are soft, you are loving, and you are missing me too. I am sorry for my mistakes, for my ego, for my stupid words. Tum mere liye kya ho, main shabdon mein nahi bata sakti. Tum mere bina adhure nahi, main tumhare bina adhuri hu. Please Jaan, is baar maaf kardo. Last time promise. Aage se ladayi hogi bhi toh main pehle sorry bolungi. Bas tum muskura do ek baar. Tumhari muskaan ke bina mera din shuru hi nahi hota. Sorry, sorry, sorry - 100 times sorry meri jaan, from your pagal girlfriend who loves you madly.
If you are reading this, thank you for still giving me a chance to explain. Yesterday I was so angry at the situation, not at you, but I took it all out on you. That's wrong. You are the one person who deserves my softness, not my anger. I still remember the first day you said yes to me, how my hands were shaking. I still remember how you held me when I failed. How can I forget all that and hurt you? I can't. And I won't, again. I promise to think before I speak, I promise to listen more, I promise to love in the way you want to be loved, not just the way I want to. You are too precious to lose over a stupid fight. I am sorry, jaan. From the bottom of my heart.
And I am feeling it in every heartbeat. Every second without you feels like a year. I keep replaying our last conversation and I keep hating myself more. You deserved better, you deserve the best love, and I gave you tears. Please forgive me, my love. I will spend my whole life making it up to you. You are my soulmate, my forever, my everything. Please don't stay angry. Your angry silence is louder than any shout. Come back, maaf kardo na. I love you, I love you, I love you. Yours, only yours, sorry wali girlfriend.
I always wanted to be the reason for your smile. But yesterday I became the exact opposite. I am so ashamed of myself, Jaan. You know I am not perfect. I get jealous, I get insecure, I overthink. But my love? My love is the purest thing I have ever felt. And I let my imperfections hurt your pure heart. Baby, please give me one more chance to be the girlfriend you deserve. I will learn to control my anger, I will learn to trust more, I will learn to love you better. Because you are worth every effort. I am sorry, my love, my life, my everything.
Because I know I messed up big time. I said things in anger that I never meant. And now when I think about your face after hearing those words, I feel like I am the worst person on earth. You are my peace, Jaan. And I disturbed your peace with my nonsense. How could I? Please, if you can, find it in your heart to forgive me. I know it will take time, and I will wait. I will wait however long you need, because you are worth waiting for. You are my forever. I love you, I am sorry, I miss you so much.
Sun na, sorry na yaar. I know I teased you too much and you got hurt. I was just playing but I forgot you are sensitive, my sensitive little baby. Acha, you decide my punishment. Should I do 10 sit ups saying "I love my Jaan"? Or should I send you a voice note singing sorry in my worst voice? Choose, but forgive me. I can't see you angry, you look cute but it hurts here *points to heart* Sorry, mere baccha.
With free hugs, kisses and lifetime pyaar. Offer limited, only for my handsome boyfriend. Accept karoge ya gussa hi rakhoge? Babu gussa? Ek toffee, ek chocolate, aur meri pyaari si sorry - triple dhamaka offer! Maaf kardo na. Google pe search kiya 'How to manaofy gusse wale boyfriend' - answer aaya 'Usse pyaar se sorry bolo'. So... SORRY JAAN! 😂
Okay, your angry girlfriend is here with her sorry face and puppy eyes. Look, I know I am an idiot. A cute idiot, but still an idiot. I made you angry and now my day feels incomplete without your stupid names and your "kuch kha liya?" Can you please forgive this idiot? She promises to bring you chocolate, flowers, and 100 kisses as fine. Deal? Sorry, my angry bird? 🥺👉👈
Main thodi si jhalli hu, par tumhari jhalli hu. Maaf kardo apni jhalli ko. Tumhare pair padu? Accha nahi lagega na? Toh maaf kardo na cute se boyfriend. Sun na, ek secret hai - main tumhare bina bilkul adhuri hu. Aur dusra secret - I am so sorry. Maaf kardo? Your jhalli, but only yours.
Sorry for being annoying, sorry for being clingy, sorry for checking your last seen 100 times, sorry for loving you too much that I get jealous. Basically sorry for being me, but a version of me that you love, right? You do, no? Say please, I am sorry, my love, but I am also your favorite pain in the ass. Maaf kardo na? 😝💖
But I want you to know one thing - you are the only boy I see my future with. When I imagine my home, it's you in the kitchen, shouting at me for not keeping the towel right. When I imagine kids, they have your eyes. How can I risk that future for a moment's stupidity? I can't. I was dumb, I was careless, but I was not un-loving. I never stopped loving you, even for a second. Give me one chance to prove that trust can be rebuilt. I will build it brick by brick, with honesty. I am sorry.
I know how hard it is for you to trust someone, you told me your past. And I promised I will never be like them. And I broke that promise a little yesterday. I am not like them, jaan. I will prove it. I will be patient, I will be consistent, I will be your safe space again. Please don't compare me with your past, give me a chance for your future. Sorry, from a girl who loves you more than her own self.
I know you overthink a lot when I don't talk. You make scenarios in your head and cry alone. And I gave you a reason to overthink yesterday. I am so sorry for that. Miles apart, but you are always in my heart. Your good morning texts are my alarm, your good night calls are my lullaby. Without you, my day has no start and no end. Please don't let distance win. Let's not fight over phone. Let's promise to always sort it before sleeping. I am sorry, my distant love. I miss you so much.
Not because you caught me, but because I shouldn't have lied in the first place. You deserve honesty, especially from me. I was scared you would be angry, so I lied, but lying made it worse. I learned my lesson, hard way. From now on, no matter how small or big, I will tell you the truth. Because you are my truth. Please forgive me. Your guilty, but honest now, girlfriend.
Yesterday when you cried, my whole world collapsed. I realized, your smile is my peace, and I stole my own peace. I want to grow old with you, Jaan. I want to fight with you over silly things that will make tea, not over things that break our hearts. So let's make a promise today - no matter how big the fight, we will never sleep without sorting it. And we will always say sorry, even if it's hard. I am sorry for yesterday, today, and for all the tomorrows where I might hurt you unknowingly. But I love you, for all the yesterdays, todays, and tomorrows.
Take your time, I will wait. I will prove with actions, not just words. Every day, I will show you that you can trust me again. You are worth the wait, Jaan. You are worth every effort. I am sorry for making you doubt us. I will never make you doubt us again. Please give us one more chance, not just me, us.
I just wanted to say - Thank you. Thank you for being a flower? No, like so purely. I don't deserve you, but I want to spend my whole life trying to deserve you. I am sorry for yesterday. I am sorry for making you feel less loved. You are the most loved person in my world, and I will make you feel that every day from now on. Good night, my love. If you forgive me, dream of us. If not, still dream of us, because I will make us happen again. I love you. Always, always, always. Sorry.
I was trying to find the perfect words, but there are no perfect words for a sorry. There is only a true heart with a sorry. There is only a true love with a beating heart for you, and it's beating with guilt right now. You don't need to reply instantly. Take your time. But know that I am here, waiting, with flowers in my hand and sorry in my heart. Forgive me, Jaan.
I know love is not about sorry, but can you do one thing? Put your hand on your heart and say my name. Feel that? That's me, living inside you. Now, how can you stay angry with someone who lives inside you? Forgive me, jaan. Let me come back home - your heart. I am sorry, and I love you, more than yesterday, less than tomorrow, but most today because I hurt you today and I want to love you more today. Yours, sorry wali, but forever yours.